So, I had this entire blog written, with pictures, links, formatting, you name it. I saved it about a dozen times. I even hit publish. But apparently nothing saved and nothing published and wow, that is totally on-brand for 2018.
This was a year of burn-out. I had two art shows back-to-back which fully fried my art brain and all of the really crummy things going on in the world did a number on my spirit. But I want to try and focus on some of the things in 2018 that made me happy: I read so many dang books, I journaled every day and blogged *nearly* every month, I had an art show in Los Angeles, I spent lots of time with my family and went to California with my mom, I joined a new gaming group (and continued to play D&D with my beloved Strong Ladies), and I got an awesome new tattoo. Yus.
MOVIES / TV
One of my favorite movie memories of the year was seeing all three extended edition Lord of the Rings films in the theatre with my mom and dad. I didn't get to nearly as many films as I would have liked in 2018, which is doubly disappointing since I work at a movie theatre, but here are my favorites.
SPIDER-MAN: INTO THE SPIDER-VERSE
Spider-Verse easily tops my list for favorite movie of the year. No other film excited or inspired me quite like this one. The story and staggeringly beautiful animation work so well. This is definitely going to be one of those movies that I rewatch a million times.
CALL ME BY YOUR NAME
I completely fell in love with this movie. I really like the way the film approaches topics of love, identity, friendship, and sex, and the creative ways director Luca Guadagnino is able to illustrate these abstract concepts. Michael Stuhlbarg's wonderful monologue toward the end made me instantly erupt into tears, even more so the second time I saw the film, and the final long shot is so beautifully simple and heartbreaking that it's going to stick with me for a very long time. Plus it includes excellent new Sufjan Stevens songs that I listened to all year. Seriously, Visions of Gideon was my most listened-to song.
I watched this film with my family on the last day of the year and absolutely did not expect to like it as much as I did. It's adorable, fun, well designed, and smartly scripted. Everyone involved seemed to be having a great time. It made my heart very happy and sometimes that's all you need.
YURI!!! ON ICE
All of my time watching Olympic figure skating coverage (the Olympics were THIS YEAR you guys) finally put me in the right mood to finish watching Yuri!!! on Ice. It has drama. It has ice skating. It has rivalries, friendships, and cute boys falling in love. It has sparkly outfits. What's NOT to love? 💕
I liked the first season of Netflix's Castlevania but it definitely felt like a prologue. With season 2 we finally get to the meat of the story and it's great. I loved all of the characters, including a host of villains that are genuinely interesting and often sympathetic. The season is a bit of a slow-build but the finale is deeply satisfying. I think I must have watched the penultimate "For Love" episode at least 20 times.
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Mission Impossible: Fallout
Spider-Man: Into The Spider-Verse topped my movie list and Insomniac's Spider-man easily tops my game list. It was apparently a spider-year. I spent so much time just swinging around New York, stopping crimes and collecting things, that I had to keep reminding myself to do the main story missions. And speaking of the main story, it was wonderful too. The writing, animation, and acting all worked so well. Bravo Insomniac.
ASSASSINS CREED: ORIGINS
Assassins Creed: Origins is another really excellent game that had me devoting countless hours to side missions and exploration. I was happily diverted from the main missions by my need to max out all the equipment, climb that pyramid, explore this sunken ship, escort that crocodile, etc. At one point I accidentally stumbled onto some totally non-canon DLC that gave me a chocobo to ride and Final Fantasy-themed super weapons. It was a while before I stopped laughing. Then I immediately equipped it all. I continue to dislike the utterly boring modern-day story/game bits (they usually detract from the games) but overall this was a winner in my book.
I didn't have much time to dig into any games this summer due to art/life stuff. But I did occasionally find myself with 15 minutes where I needed a break and I used that time to finally finish Runner 2. I love this series to bits and always get a great sense of accomplishment when I'm able to perfectly dance my way through a hard level.
RATCHET & CLANK
I wanted a bit of a palate cleanser in November after getting super frustrated trying to play Vampyr, and Ratchet & Clank suited my needs perfectly. It's silly and light and very fun to play. I restarted second and third playthroughs immediately so I could get every collectible and upgrade every weapon. I loved the original games and the 2016 version combines lots of good elements from the franchise and manages to feel both new and familiar.
I read 90 books this year. NINETY. That is a personal best and probably explains why I got to so few movies and games.You will notice that, as usual, I was in a happily-ever-after mood.
Books are usually my way to escape the real world for a few hours, so I don't often gravitate to non-fiction. But I am so glad that I read this memoir; Roxane Gay has an incredible narrative voice. Hunger is the account of a truly horrific incident that Gay went through in childhood and how it shaped and corroded her life. It is also an honest and justifiably angry account of what it is like to be a fat woman in a society that does everything it can to shame and erase fat people. A lot of that really hit home for me. "I do that too" I thought, again and again.
A beautifully illustrated graphic novel about identity, love, and friendship that follows a young prince who secretly goes out at night as his fabulous alter-ego Lady Crystallia, and the seamstress who designs his gowns. I highly recommend this one. 💖
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Space Opera combines two of my favorite things: space adventures and glam rock. This book is weird and clever and I already want to read it again. In the not too distant future, a group of semi-psychic blue flamingo/angler fish aliens makes first contact with Earth. In order to prove that humans are sentient and worthy of inclusion among the other space-faring life-forms, one Earth band must attend the Metagalactic Grand Prix, an extra-terrestrial talent competition that will determine the fate of humanity. This monumental task falls on the glittery shoulders of has-been glam-rock icon Decibel Jones and the one remaining member of his band The Absolute Zeroes. If the duo does well, humans will be accepted into the greater galactic community; if they fail, all human life will be exterminated. Space Opera combines the linear story of Decibel’s journey to the Grand Prix with the larger galactic history that surrounds the event, and is written in a flamboyant, funny style that made me very happy.
After a huge portion of the world is covered in water following an apocalyptic flood, the gods and mythological creatures from Navajo legends are reborn and start appearing on earth. Trail of Lightning takes place in what was formerly the Navajo reservation (Arizona, Utah, New Mexico), which declared independence from the US and surrounded itself with an impossibly high wall of turquoise. The story follows Maggie, a monster hunter with a violent past, and Kai, a Medicine Man in training, as they try to find the source of a new kind of monster. I loved this book. The mythology and setting are wonderfully rich and the characters are complex and interesting. The story is written in a way that you don't always know exactly what is going on or what the characters are thinking and it works. Trail of Lightning ends on a bit of a cliffhanger so I am chomping at the bit for the next installment.
Spinning Silver is a kind-of-sort-of retelling of Rumpelstiltskin, mixed with other elements of fairy tales and folk lore. The entire book is written in shifting first-person perspective, which means that every chapter starts with a little detective work as you try to figure out who is talking. At first this was really a challenge for me and kind of put me off the book. But I'm glad I stuck with it, because once I got used to the rhythms of the story and more familiar with the characters, I ended up enjoying it a lot.
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Gentleman's Guide... follows the rebellious son of an English Nobleman, who ventures out on one last "Grand Tour" with his friend (who he is completely in love with, naturally) before he is expected to settle down, be respectable, and take over the family estate. The characters are unexpectedly rich and interesting, the romance is supremely satisfying, the writing is smart, and the over the top adventure and melodrama kept me thoroughly entertained. Despite the fact that our main character Monty makes the wrong decision and says the wrong thing at pretty much every opportunity, Mackenzi Lee was able to keep me rooting for him and on his side even when he didn't deserve it. That takes talent.
The Lightning-Struck Heart is a fantasy romance (knights, unicorns, dragons, etc) through the filter of RuPaul's Drag Race. It is high camp, wall-to-wall innuendo and sex jokes, and an utter joy to read. I was laughing out loud constantly. Our main character is Sam, a phenomenally powerful wizard's apprentice who literally has NO filter - everything that comes into his head comes out of his mouth. He is accompanied by Gary, a gay unicorn who lost his horn, and Tiggy, a half-giant. Sam spends his days being captured by dark wizards and pining for the dreamy knight commander Sir Ryan Foxheart, who is engaged to marry the prince. When the prince is captured by a dragon, Sam, Gary, Tiggy, and Foxheart set out on a quest to rescue him.
In the universe of The Lightning-Struck Heart everyone talks about sex without shame or reservation, and there are characters with a huge spectrum of sexual identities that never face discrimination for who they love. This is a kingdom where there is nothing unusual about a prince marrying a knight. It's incredibly refreshing. The book is non-stop sassy, salty banter, sexual innuendo, and supreme ridiculousness, yet at the same time there are real moments of heart that caught me off guard. Sam is surrounded by people who love him - his family, the wise old wizard, the king - and there are so many wonderful passages where those characters help and support him. Occasionally the narrative gets a wee bit lost in the excessive banter and once in a while a joke goes on way too long, but this didn't detract from my overall love of the book.
This gothic romance is an unexpected combination of supernatural elements and folklore. The book starts with Lord Thornby, a rudderless bon-vivant who is dragged home and trapped on his father's estate by mysterious, violent forces. A year into his imprisonment, a magician named John Blake arrives to investigate a purported case of witchcraft and the two begin working together to lift Thornby's curse. The magic in this book is really unique (Blake is an "industrial magician" who can communicate with objects like nails and salt) and the chemistry between the two main characters is great.
This two-book series follows an introverted American college student who travels to England for a year abroad, falls in love, grapples with the fear of coming out to his Russian immigrant family, and tries to come to grips with his anxiety and find his voice. The first ABROAD book was one of my favorites from 2017 and the second part did not disappoint. I highly recommend this series.
The premise: reluctantly famous rock star front man falls for a recovering addict who gave up his music career. It is total romance candy with angst and beautiful people smooching each other and I was SO INVESTED IN THIS BOOK. *sigh*
I'm a big fan of historical romance trilogies/series that stick with the same main characters; I like when a relationship is given time to grow and change over the course of several books (see also: Abroad, Arden St. Ives, and A Charm of Magpies). The Happily Ever After is far more effective when you've spent so much time with the characters and this is one of the main elements that makes the Enlightenment series stand out for me. By the end of the third book I was I *very* invested in David and Murdo's love story and the HEA they had to work very hard to achieve. The first book wasn't quite as strong as the following installments, but I would definitely recommend this trilogy if gay historical romances are your cup of tea.
I don't usually have much interest in modern paranormal romances (your sexy vampires, your broody shape-shifters, etc, etc) but I loved T.J. Klune's Lightning-Struck Heart so much that I decided to check out his Green Creek werewolf series. And I could not put this god damn book down. Klune's lyrical writing style is a pleasure to read and there are emotional sections that genuinely made me cry. The story is about werewolves, yes, but also about love, family, revenge, drama, and angst. SO. MUCH. ANGST. I loved it. I am going to be reading many more T.J. Klune books in 2019 (I'm already more than half way through Green Creek book two).
Wrong to Need You is the second book in Alisha Rai's Forbidden Hearts series and contains all of the necessary ingredients for a good romance: feuding families, forbidden entanglements, long simmering crushes, interesting protagonists, and plenty of steamy interludes. While this was my favorite of the series, all three books are very good.
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I became a bit obsessed with Troye Sivan and BTS this fall, so that basically dominated my 2018 music. Apparently I listened to Troye for 109 hours, which is particularly impressive given that I heard him for the first time in September. I also listened to a lot of Janelle Monáe and The Decemberists. As far as concerts go, I was very lucky to see Neko Case, The Wombats, The Decemberists, and a production of Live From Here with Jeff Tweedy.
When summing up my year in art, my brain instinctively wants to go negative and focus on all the time I wasn't able to make anything. But I choose instead to focus on all the cool things I accomplished. I finally finished all 52 collages in my Nerd Love series. I had an incredibly exciting small group show at Gallery1988 in Los Angeles. I had a great two-person show in Lincoln. I started a Patreon page and began to make process videos. And I am hopeful for 2019; I already have a bunch of ideas for my August solo show so that's a good start.
Well that about wraps up 2018. I hope 2019 is a little less grim. May your year be filled with dog hugs, warm cookies, and good friends.